June 2013
“There is no shame in being hungry for another person.” — Augusten Burroughs
to know his body is an instrument,
that to move is to create
rhythm. His small feet stomp out
an invocation on the bleachers.
Pencils become drumsticks.
His mouth, a beat-box.
He is a song asking everything
why it is not dancing.” —Stevie Edwards, “For K,” published in Radius (via nps2013)
You’d better rearrange your beliefs, then. Because you certainly can’t rearrange the universe.” —Isaac Asimov (via substantia-nigra)
Your daughter is ugly.
She knows loss intimately,
carries whole cities in her belly.As a child, relatives wouldn’t hold her.
She was splintered wood and sea water.
They said she reminded them of the war.On her fifteenth birthday you taught her
how to tie her hair like rope
and smoke it over burning frankincense.You made her gargle rosewater
and while she coughed, said
macaanto girls like you shouldn’t smell
of lonely or empty.You are her mother.
Why did you not warn her,
hold her like a rotting boat
and tell her that men will not love her
if she is covered in continents,
if her teeth are small colonies,
if her stomach is an island,
if her thighs are borders?What man wants to lay down
and watch the world burn
in his bedroom?Your daughter’s face is a small riot,
her hands are a civil war,
a refugee camp behind each ear,
a body littered with ugly things,but God,
doesn’t she wear
the world well.
Dismiss whatever insults your own soul,
And your very flesh shall be a great poem,
And have the richest fluency not only in its words,
But in the silent lines of its lips and face,
And between the lashes of your eyes,
And in every motion and joint of your body.
only because they walked
upon the earth and upon
the wind and upon the waters,
until they found me.” —Pablo Neruda
“Every once in a while,
you flicker across my heart
like a lighthouse does an ocean,
and I wonder who you’re calling home.”
I drank you like the cure when maybe
you were the poison.” —Clementine von Radics
there is no such thing as crying,
we are only trying to turn ourselves inside out.
This is a noble pursuit” —Lewis Mundt, excerpt from “Water”
May 2013
Why did you not warn her,
hold her like a rotting boat
and tell her that men will not love her
if she is covered in continents,
if her teeth are small colonies,
if her stomach is an island
if her thighs are borders?
What man wants to lie down
and watch the world burn
in his bedroom?” —Warsan Shire - Teaching My Mother How To Give Birth
Scars; they seem so beautiful at times. I’ve got many, deep and shallow. They aren’t self-inflicted, well consciously they aren’t. They cover my arms, my legs, even my fingers are painted with them. To others it might seem like a cry for help or a careless attitude but for me it’s my whole life story engraved on me. Every scar, every bruise has a life of its own and a space in my heart. They either remind me of a place or a person.
It sucks because sometimes you want to forget about those memories and move on but what can you do about the scars? Sadly, there is no magic wand to rub them off of your body. Even if they fade away over the years, the impact still stays there in your head. The mental scars are the worst of its kind. They haunt you even in your dreams. These scars cause you to stay stuck at a point of your life where you’re unable to move or breathe. At some point of time your soul is so heavily bruised that the physical pain is nothing but a mere pinch. This is the time where you start feeling like an outsider in your own life and when you look down at yourself you realize how helpless you are and how stagnant you’ve become. Every scar you look at is bursting with frustration. It’s screaming to bleed out.
But then something strange happens over time, you start to admire them and appreciate them. Why? It is because you realize that these very scars show you how far you’ve come. It shows you that you may have faced hurdles but you still have a long way to go. It tells you not to give up even if every inch of your body is marked and dashed, to celebrate the scars instead. Even if you don’t make it in the end at least you have something to show to the world that you never backed down.
” —Pramiti Sapru (via sentirlanada)Loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better.
Henry Rollins